{"id":65437,"date":"2024-01-16T14:11:48","date_gmt":"2024-01-16T07:11:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/alternatech.net\/?p=65437"},"modified":"2024-01-16T14:12:01","modified_gmt":"2024-01-16T07:12:01","slug":"second-choice","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/second-choice\/","title":{"rendered":"A Second Choice&hellip;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>I hate the number 2&hellip;\n<p><img fetchpriority='\"high\"' decoding='\"async\"' class='\"aligncenter' wp-image-65500 size-medium src="%5C%22https:%5C/%5C/alternatech.net%5C/wp-content%5C/uploads%5C/2024%5C/01%5C/Beige-and-Brown-Elegant-New-Collection-Instagram-Post-Portrait-1080x1350-px-4-240x300.png%5C%22" alt='\"\"' width='\"240\"' height='\"300\"'>\n</p><p><strong> Cause it&rsquo;s what I always been. Since 2 grade I&rsquo;ve walked behind a pair with joined arms I&rsquo;ve sat alone in the back seat of a car.\n<p>I&rsquo;ve been silenced during conversations with others\n</p><p>Well,\n</p><p>I would say for the first time&hellip;I would try again I figure third times a charm right?\n</p><p>I- and no one even glanced at my way I envy found family in books and tv-shows Because I&rsquo;ve realized I could never form a friendship like that. Someone be willing to die for me? I can barely convince anyone to want to hang out.\n</p><p>So I form relationships with the characters in books I read books about friends and relationships in hopes <strong>one day it will happen to me and this voice in my head telling me I could never be enough.\n<p>I pretend my eyes don&rsquo;t glow green whenever I see videos of friends doing everything together I want to be liked loved I want everyone to stop leaving.\n</p><p><em><strong>I want to be seen. \n<p><em><strong>I want to be heard. \n<p><em><strong>And I want to be somebody&rsquo;s world but that&rsquo;s not realistic for a second choice.\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I hate the number 2&hellip; Cause it&rsquo;s what I always been. Since 2 grade I&rsquo;ve walked behind a pair with joined arms I&rsquo;ve sat alone in the back seat of a car. I&rsquo;ve been silenced during conversations with others Well, I would say for the first time&hellip;I would try again I figure third times a\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":65500,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_seopress_robots_primary_cat":"","_seopress_titles_title":"","_seopress_titles_desc":"","_seopress_robots_index":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[657],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-65437","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-love-and-relationships"},"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/Beige-and-Brown-Elegant-New-Collection-Instagram-Post-Portrait-1080x1350-px-4-e1705389102613.png","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/65437","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=65437"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/65437\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/65500"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=65437"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=65437"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/writehorizon.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=65437"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}</p></strong></em></p></strong></em></p></strong></em></p></strong></p></strong></p></strong></p>